oh my goodness i had court this morning! don't want to get into details there, but everything went well and all will be fine =]
just got out of my afternoon classes a lil bit ago. yippie! no more til 11am tomorrow. chyes. ew yuck which reminds me i need to finish my english paper =[ no bueno. ugh AND my stupid univ100 paper! eerrrrrgggggg
ok so that totally killed my mood.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
nine
ooh myy godd brandon came to see me yesterday!! i couldn't even believe it, sunday night when we were talkin on the phone, i don't even remember what we were talking about but then he said "you know i should just drive down there right now. i don't work again until late on tuesday..." so naturally i jumped all over that & was like yes yes come right now! and all the jazz hehe. he asked his parents and they said noo because he had to take lil courtney to her babysitter the next morning =[ then we were sayin he could come after he dropped her off, but then he would only be here for a day and weren't quite sure the four hour drive would be worth it. until i called him on my way to class just before nine yesterday morning and he was already half way here! aah!!
so basically the 24 hours that he was here were AMAZING. but what else could i expect!? hehe =] i am IN LOVE with that boy!
so basically the 24 hours that he was here were AMAZING. but what else could i expect!? hehe =] i am IN LOVE with that boy!
Sunday, October 14, 2007
eight
ok NOW no post in a loong while...
anywho. i'm lonely =[ i kind of hate it here. there, i said it. i hate college... i hate radford... i am beyond homesick and it's not getting any better. boo. i miss brandon so much it's ridiculous! i think i'm going insane... but hey only 5 more days! then i'll get my fix. just a couple short days at home with my love. i guess it'll have to do =\ it's all i get no matter how much i kick and scream.
soo i'm thinking this whole blog thing is close to meaningless on account nothing ever happens with me. except for the occasional updates on brandon and i, but whatever. its sure keeps me entertained and hey, it's fun to read my posts from months ago and think back to what i was doing then & what not.
hmm. so today's probably been the laziest day of my LIFE. and i'm not even exaggerating. i woke up around 10, got a bowl of dry cereal (since milk is a luxury and poor college kids can't afford that kinda stuff), and i sat in my bed and watched tv. all day. ALL day. got on facebook once or twice yoouu knoow. talked to brandon whenever he could on his breaks, since he's been at work all day. and that's it. ugh. the last time i talked to him on the phone i was pacing in circles around our little coffee table i was so bored! and i feel kinda bad, i'm pretty sure i was bein grumpy with him on the phone. gah. radford ruins lives! ok that's an exaggeration, but it sure as hell seems to be doing more harm than good with mine. ew.
right now i'm watching a special on cnn about criminally insane people. i first stopped on it because it was talkin bout the bastard cho from tech, and then it got into the guys from the columbine shooting and now the dc snipers. why are some people so freakin evil? everyone seriously just needs to quit their bitching because life is not THAT bad. and in the well spoken words of my daddy-o, even if it is THAT bad, it can only go up from there. dangit i miss him too.
ok HERE'S something interesting! actually it's probably not, so if anyone has actually read this far then OMG YOU HAVE NO LIFE and you should probably find something better to do right now. but in case you're intrigued as to what i thought was interesting today, feel free to read on =] alrighty! ok so i was watching some documentary on animal planet (i told you i was bored) about a lioness and her life on the savanna and what not. she had left her original pride because one of the males ate her cub. gasp! i'd have blown that Popsicle joint too. ok so quick summary lioness is all by herself hunting on her own and just barely gettin by. THEN one day while on the hunt, she came across a bunch of deer lookin things, i forget what they were called, but with them is a little calf that was away from it's mother. lioness basically kidnaps the calf but adopts it as her own baby! ah! it was so cute she bathed it, and they cuddled together... aw! so for over two weeks the lion and what should have been its prey were just kickin it together by the watering hole and all that jazz. so touching =] EXCEPT one really hot day when the lioness was sleepin under a tree, for the first time since the two were together, she let the little calf out of her sight. and the second she did ANOTHER male lion comes out of no where and attacks the baby calf! aahh! it was terrible you could hear the poor thing screaming and him just dragging it around by the neck and the lioness immediately woke up when she heard all of this and followed them but she couldn't do anything but watch. then the male lion finally killed the calf but dragged it off somewhere else to eat it. the lioness went over to where the calf was killed and smelled and laid by the blood, which the narrator said was exactly how a mourning lion mother who's lost her cub acts. so i pretty much bawled. it's pathetic, i know. but i did. ok the end.
ok so brandon just got off work and caallled me so i must be going! til next time...
anywho. i'm lonely =[ i kind of hate it here. there, i said it. i hate college... i hate radford... i am beyond homesick and it's not getting any better. boo. i miss brandon so much it's ridiculous! i think i'm going insane... but hey only 5 more days! then i'll get my fix. just a couple short days at home with my love. i guess it'll have to do =\ it's all i get no matter how much i kick and scream.
soo i'm thinking this whole blog thing is close to meaningless on account nothing ever happens with me. except for the occasional updates on brandon and i, but whatever. its sure keeps me entertained and hey, it's fun to read my posts from months ago and think back to what i was doing then & what not.
hmm. so today's probably been the laziest day of my LIFE. and i'm not even exaggerating. i woke up around 10, got a bowl of dry cereal (since milk is a luxury and poor college kids can't afford that kinda stuff), and i sat in my bed and watched tv. all day. ALL day. got on facebook once or twice yoouu knoow. talked to brandon whenever he could on his breaks, since he's been at work all day. and that's it. ugh. the last time i talked to him on the phone i was pacing in circles around our little coffee table i was so bored! and i feel kinda bad, i'm pretty sure i was bein grumpy with him on the phone. gah. radford ruins lives! ok that's an exaggeration, but it sure as hell seems to be doing more harm than good with mine. ew.
right now i'm watching a special on cnn about criminally insane people. i first stopped on it because it was talkin bout the bastard cho from tech, and then it got into the guys from the columbine shooting and now the dc snipers. why are some people so freakin evil? everyone seriously just needs to quit their bitching because life is not THAT bad. and in the well spoken words of my daddy-o, even if it is THAT bad, it can only go up from there. dangit i miss him too.
ok HERE'S something interesting! actually it's probably not, so if anyone has actually read this far then OMG YOU HAVE NO LIFE and you should probably find something better to do right now. but in case you're intrigued as to what i thought was interesting today, feel free to read on =] alrighty! ok so i was watching some documentary on animal planet (i told you i was bored) about a lioness and her life on the savanna and what not. she had left her original pride because one of the males ate her cub. gasp! i'd have blown that Popsicle joint too. ok so quick summary lioness is all by herself hunting on her own and just barely gettin by. THEN one day while on the hunt, she came across a bunch of deer lookin things, i forget what they were called, but with them is a little calf that was away from it's mother. lioness basically kidnaps the calf but adopts it as her own baby! ah! it was so cute she bathed it, and they cuddled together... aw! so for over two weeks the lion and what should have been its prey were just kickin it together by the watering hole and all that jazz. so touching =] EXCEPT one really hot day when the lioness was sleepin under a tree, for the first time since the two were together, she let the little calf out of her sight. and the second she did ANOTHER male lion comes out of no where and attacks the baby calf! aahh! it was terrible you could hear the poor thing screaming and him just dragging it around by the neck and the lioness immediately woke up when she heard all of this and followed them but she couldn't do anything but watch. then the male lion finally killed the calf but dragged it off somewhere else to eat it. the lioness went over to where the calf was killed and smelled and laid by the blood, which the narrator said was exactly how a mourning lion mother who's lost her cub acts. so i pretty much bawled. it's pathetic, i know. but i did. ok the end.
ok so brandon just got off work and caallled me so i must be going! til next time...
Sunday, September 9, 2007
seven
no post in a while...
BRANDON IS COMING THIS WEDNESDAY!!! oh heck yes!!! aahhh can't wait! we've been fighting a lot this past week and its always over something dumb and not worth fighting over, but they all boil down to both of us being too worried about the other, so we agreed we're both going to try very hard to keep our cool and not fight so much. cuz all it does is put unwanted and unneeded stress on both of us. ugh. so hopefully we'll be better from now on =] I AM IN LoOoOoOoVE WITH HIM!! and we're getting married. its decided. gah i love him sooo freaking much! i've never felt so safe in a relationship before. i am actually going to marry him. ah yayyy!!! i used to think it would be scary to realize the man i'm going to marry... like it would be the end and no more dating. one person forever. but its really not... i can't imagine being happier anywhere but with him. i can spend the rest of my life with him without a single regret. aahhh i love love =]
BRANDON IS COMING THIS WEDNESDAY!!! oh heck yes!!! aahhh can't wait! we've been fighting a lot this past week and its always over something dumb and not worth fighting over, but they all boil down to both of us being too worried about the other, so we agreed we're both going to try very hard to keep our cool and not fight so much. cuz all it does is put unwanted and unneeded stress on both of us. ugh. so hopefully we'll be better from now on =] I AM IN LoOoOoOoVE WITH HIM!! and we're getting married. its decided. gah i love him sooo freaking much! i've never felt so safe in a relationship before. i am actually going to marry him. ah yayyy!!! i used to think it would be scary to realize the man i'm going to marry... like it would be the end and no more dating. one person forever. but its really not... i can't imagine being happier anywhere but with him. i can spend the rest of my life with him without a single regret. aahhh i love love =]
Thursday, August 30, 2007
six
no history due tomorrow!!! good lordy i've been geeking out about it all day. ridiculous. NEXT friday!! that relieves a WHOLE lot of stress. whew! (i love brandon) aand all classes today were relatively uneventful. yuup. (i love brandon) one more freaking day to get through. then i'm hoome! one more day. one more day. one more day!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
five
i didn't think it was possible, but i am more in love with brandon than i've ever been. i love him more than i did yesterday, and tomorrow i'll love him more than i did today. gah. hes so amazing in every way. i'm gonna marry him.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
four
just got off the phone with brandon!! gah i freaking love that boy!! for real. we're gonna move in together after this semester. and i'm gonna go to community college and take classes online while hes in the military. i'm gonna become an elementary school teacher with my own little classroom with classroom pets and a reading rug and cute colorful boards with cute little kids and even the little hellians i'll love and i'll mold their minds and create my own little mark on the world. i'll also have a little art station so kids can learn to love art because i think that's important. but whats most important is that my future is so clear... with brandon. and that he sees it too, and that we can talk about it together. ah! i can't wait. just to be with him... life will be amazing!! =D
three
art & history yesterday afternoon... art professor wanted my work at the end of class; that was flattering =] apparently i did learn a thing or two in the last four years of art class! kagle would be proud. history... boring as usual. ugh that's gonna be my hardest class for sure, too much interpretation and those stupid young professors try to make everything harder to prove themselves. ew. girls that sit next to me are quite obnoxious; rolling their eyes anytime someone decides to offer an intelligent thought to the discussion. its so sad they have to poke fun at people just because they pay attention in class and actually have a brain. gr.
aand last night brandon and i had quite the conversation online! i won't go into the gooey details, but basically i love him to death, and apparently he feels the same =D yayayayayayay!! we talked about the "future" wooo baby! he could be The One... ah! giggly tingles shivers and sweats all at the same time! so this is love =]
english, univ100, & stats today. aallll kinda sucky. no need for details there. been keeping in touch with brandon all day of course. sounds like hes having a pretty good time at the beach which is good. i was scared after sunday's events that it was going to be ruined for him =[ but so far so good! oh also went to christiansburg with holly to get her phone fixed. stupid cell phones gr, why do they have to be so complicated!! she treated me to jimmy johns which was very nice =] she said thank you for driving her like a gazillion and one times, i dunno i guess that's not weird, but i can't imagine anyone being like "no i'm just not in the mood" well if your friend really needs a ride somewhere aka to get her cell phone fixed, i can feel her pain and heck yes i'll take her! that's not even something i have to think about doing... just helping people. everyone should do it. and i hope everything goes ok with her & sam eek. serious roommate heart to heart definitely necessary there. respect... another thing that should just come naturally to people but unfortunately doesn't.
ok so now i'm in for the night... time for some studying. eh.
aand last night brandon and i had quite the conversation online! i won't go into the gooey details, but basically i love him to death, and apparently he feels the same =D yayayayayayay!! we talked about the "future" wooo baby! he could be The One... ah! giggly tingles shivers and sweats all at the same time! so this is love =]
english, univ100, & stats today. aallll kinda sucky. no need for details there. been keeping in touch with brandon all day of course. sounds like hes having a pretty good time at the beach which is good. i was scared after sunday's events that it was going to be ruined for him =[ but so far so good! oh also went to christiansburg with holly to get her phone fixed. stupid cell phones gr, why do they have to be so complicated!! she treated me to jimmy johns which was very nice =] she said thank you for driving her like a gazillion and one times, i dunno i guess that's not weird, but i can't imagine anyone being like "no i'm just not in the mood" well if your friend really needs a ride somewhere aka to get her cell phone fixed, i can feel her pain and heck yes i'll take her! that's not even something i have to think about doing... just helping people. everyone should do it. and i hope everything goes ok with her & sam eek. serious roommate heart to heart definitely necessary there. respect... another thing that should just come naturally to people but unfortunately doesn't.
ok so now i'm in for the night... time for some studying. eh.
Monday, August 27, 2007
two
biology this morning. yay for lectures!! then bio lab... a 30 minute walk down a hill way past the already far away student parking lot, all to take 10 minutes and measure a flower, then the 30 minutes walk back UP the hill. eeww its hot. now i'm all sticky and sweaty. gross.
brandon seems to be in an infinitely better mood this morning =D this makes me very happy!! 4 DAYYSSS!!!
brandon seems to be in an infinitely better mood this morning =D this makes me very happy!! 4 DAYYSSS!!!
Sunday, August 26, 2007
one
i really hope brandon comes around. i pray to god he does. he has to... i desperately need him to. i love him so much but he HAS to learn to trust me. i can't go on having to tell him everything i'm doing every second of the day. don't get me wrong i don't mind doing it at all... for now. this is a really really hard adjustment, especially considering his past. i'll do it for the whole semester if i have to. but not forever. i can't do that, he just has to trust me.
because i love him more than life. if he can't ever see that... then maybe we aren't meant to be. now i'm not giving up hope yet, but he has to eventually. he has to feel my love. i feel like i've got SOO much of it to give, i'm going to bust at the seams. i love him so much i just want to stand on a mountain and scream it to the world. he makes me feel like no one else ever has, and i would never ever trade this feeling or him for the world. i completely understand, or at least as much as anyone can, how he can feel about being betrayed so badly so many times. but i love him. i really really do. no one else could have, at least not the way i do. because if anyone else ever did, HOW THE HELL could they ever break his heart. I LOVE HIM. i trust him with my life and my whole heart. because in a way, no matter how upset he gets sometimes, i don't think he would ever do to me whats been done to him. that's the ONLY thing the skeez has ever done that's good to him. other than that i hate her guts. and no one else is going to change my mind =] as far as i'm concerned, you could be a saint, but to betray someone like brandon so badly and absolutely break his heart... does not merit my forgiveness or likeness. i DO get to hate your guts because you are indirectly creating problems with my relationship with him now. gr. i hate her.
ok enough talk about that. i mean i could probably write a novel on the topic, but it just stresses me out more than i already am. i miss home so much =[ and brandon, obviously. i miss him the most. i can't stand being so far away. 5 more days!!!
because i love him more than life. if he can't ever see that... then maybe we aren't meant to be. now i'm not giving up hope yet, but he has to eventually. he has to feel my love. i feel like i've got SOO much of it to give, i'm going to bust at the seams. i love him so much i just want to stand on a mountain and scream it to the world. he makes me feel like no one else ever has, and i would never ever trade this feeling or him for the world. i completely understand, or at least as much as anyone can, how he can feel about being betrayed so badly so many times. but i love him. i really really do. no one else could have, at least not the way i do. because if anyone else ever did, HOW THE HELL could they ever break his heart. I LOVE HIM. i trust him with my life and my whole heart. because in a way, no matter how upset he gets sometimes, i don't think he would ever do to me whats been done to him. that's the ONLY thing the skeez has ever done that's good to him. other than that i hate her guts. and no one else is going to change my mind =] as far as i'm concerned, you could be a saint, but to betray someone like brandon so badly and absolutely break his heart... does not merit my forgiveness or likeness. i DO get to hate your guts because you are indirectly creating problems with my relationship with him now. gr. i hate her.
ok enough talk about that. i mean i could probably write a novel on the topic, but it just stresses me out more than i already am. i miss home so much =[ and brandon, obviously. i miss him the most. i can't stand being so far away. 5 more days!!!
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